Childhood is a great time if we encounter a great memory. Sometimes it can affect the rest of our life. Childhood also can cause us certain trauma as the effect from bad things or bad memories. Such as phobia of being keep in small room or phobia to see sharp thing directly.

I have phobia/trauma which is cause by love rejection. Some people see childhood love is just simple and fun memory. It should not be taken seriously for what happen in childhood. It is not the same for me. The way my love have been reject still haunted me. Why?

Has someone reject your love directly to your face and said things that really hurts your feeling? I have this experience and I face it many times. Either you believe it or not, it’s up to you.

My first love been rejected when I am 12 years old. Teenager transition time occur between age 11 years old and 15 years old. At that time, I am a fat and chubby boy who fall in love with a slim and beautiful girl. I am not confident of myself but I still try to tackle the girl. I got help from my junior, a girl who is willing to help me. She always deliver my love notes to the girl. Until one day, my friend that help me come to me and tell me this, “She (the girl) don’t want me to disturb her again and she also said ‘hidung tak mancung, pipi pulak tersorong-sorong’” So, I directly ask the girl that I like, if what my friend said is true. She replied ‘yes’ to what I asked. It’s really left a deep hurt mark in my heart.

11th grade
The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn’t want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said “thanks” and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don’t want to be just friends, I love her but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why.

Senior year
The day before prom she walked to my locker. My date is sick” she said; he’s not going to go well, I didn’t have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as “best friends”. So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn’t think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said “I had the best time, thanks!” and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don’t want to be just friends, I love her but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why.
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*Names and places of event won’t be tell in this post to keep my friend from publicity and love hater. Haha

Have you ever heard of one missed call story? Not that scary film. One missed call that started all the happy and sadness in love life. I have a friend, a female friend. She will get married this month. While chatting with her, she told me a story about how they met. I am very touch to hear the story that’s why I like to share with some of you who read my post. :heart:

It’s all begin with one missed call. Nope. Not one, but many missed calls. How this situation happen? In junior year of university life, people barely know each other. Lecturer wanted to have students phone numbers so they can be contact easily. It’s their destiny if I may say so. He accidentally took her phone number as every student had to write their phone number on piece of paper, submit it and take the lecturer phone number.

What happen next is, she received many missed calls from his number. Becoz of that, she confront with him and then eventually become friend; best friend as she said. Even people will mistaken them as boyfriend-girlfriend even though they already have their own bf and gf.

Then for about a year , he suddenly start to avoiding her. She wonder about his attitude. Then, she suddenly received an email from him. She shocked! As he stated that, “He felt guilty as his feeling has fallen for her”. Remember that, he still has his gf. The next day, my friend acted like nothing happen. So the issue won’t create any trouble of girls fighting over a man. They don’t meet each other on that year.

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I lost contact with you for many years, or may I say 8 years in actual figure. I do love you with all my heart. I will always tremble by staring your eyes. If I say that I am completely lost without you, I am actually lying about it. I tried to have new relationship but it’s hardly to work out. Maybe it’s all about my mistake; my childish attitude, never serious in any work and perhaps my bad luck in tackling girls.

After those years, I still manage to keep you from my sight as I want to really focus on my studies. But now, I meet you again. See you, talk to you even imagining about you and me going out together. Yes, I know. In reality it will surely never happen. As you see me not more than just a ‘friend’. I just hope you can see me more than that. I try to imagine we live as couple, but it’s hard to do. I can’t sense any response from you. Most of the time, it’s just you laughing at my stupid and pathetic jokes. Truly, I’ll love you always. Although we are not destine to be together. As my true love to you, I wish you happy ever after. Until this moment I ask myself, “Did I bother you?” by calling you, texting you and IM you… At least I am glad you accept me as friends rather than bad memories.