Childhood is a great time if we encounter a great memory. Sometimes it can affect the rest of our life. Childhood also can cause us certain trauma as the effect from bad things or bad memories. Such as phobia of being keep in small room or phobia to see sharp thing directly.
I have phobia/trauma which is cause by love rejection. Some people see childhood love is just simple and fun memory. It should not be taken seriously for what happen in childhood. It is not the same for me. The way my love have been reject still haunted me. Why?
Has someone reject your love directly to your face and said things that really hurts your feeling? I have this experience and I face it many times. Either you believe it or not, it’s up to you.
My first love been rejected when I am 12 years old. Teenager transition time occur between age 11 years old and 15 years old. At that time, I am a fat and chubby boy who fall in love with a slim and beautiful girl. I am not confident of myself but I still try to tackle the girl. I got help from my junior, a girl who is willing to help me. She always deliver my love notes to the girl. Until one day, my friend that help me come to me and tell me this, “She (the girl) don’t want me to disturb her again and she also said ‘hidung tak mancung, pipi pulak tersorong-sorong’” So, I directly ask the girl that I like, if what my friend said is true. She replied ‘yes’ to what I asked. It’s really left a deep hurt mark in my heart.





